oh right, i still have this thing.

i randomly remembered i have this blog yesterday!
well might as well update it! :D

first off, let me start by wishing everyone a happy new year!
2010 baby!
i truly believe that this will be a better year. 2009 was just plain awful.
full of tragic deaths of loved ones, might i add.

so anywaaaaay, my life is pretty much moving smoothly.
i actually like the way things are right now. 2009 has helped me know who my real friends are and who just wants to sit with me to get the attention.
*sigh* its not easy being popular. xD

i'm wearing this Fall Out Boy hoodie Meto got me from their concert in London.
imissmetosofreakingmuch!
why did you have to leave our school? =(

speaking of school, IT STARTS ON MONDAY!
omg, Winter Break's almost overrrr~
no faaiiirrr :'(

got a lot to do today (mainly finish unfinished homework)
so yeahhh,
im offf for nowww.

leave out all the rest

omg omg omg!!
i just locked my phone! and i dont know whats my PUK code :/
i feel so stupid right now.
im sorry martyyyyyy :( :( :(
but my aunt is going to take it to the telecommunication service and get the code! love you auntie! you're a lifesavor!!!!!!


i can't stop panicing!!!
survey to kill time and to stop thinking about marty...

What was the last thing you spent money on?
a pack of Hello Kitty socks.

When is the last time you fell asleep watching a movie?
Can't remember hehe.

What is on your mind?
Worried about Marty!!

Are you counting down for anything?
SUMMERRRRR!!

If you could go anywhere right now, where would it be?
Spain =)

Does your hair have layers?
yes :]

Are your nails done?
No lol.

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Maryaminho

Do you call it fall or autumn?
Falltumn? :D

What is something you are not looking forward to?
Exams :

Are you feeling guilty about anything right now?
Yes, i'm sorry Marty! I was just trying to get you a PIN code so you'd be more secure! HONEST!!

Who/what is the last thing you kicked?
I don't remember.

What was the last thing put in your mouth?
I was chewing my glow in the dark bracelet ROFL!

When is the last time you had fast food?
On Saturday! Johney Rockets ftw! =]

Who are you currently frustrated with?
At myself for locking Marty :(

Are you wearing any clothes that don’t belong to you?
No.

Are you texting anyone?
*cries*... dont remind me :(

Are you excited for winter?
Dude. I wan't the summer vacation.

Have you ever slapped someone in the face?
Yes, my friends, but we were just goofing off.

What is the closest thing to you that is blue?
A Spanish dictionary.

Are you disappointed about anything?
Yes, I never knew I was this stupid :

Do you feel awkward when strangers say hi to you?
Naah, I'm fully aware that I'm famous so...

Are you any different now than you were a year ago?
Yes, more open-minded now :)

Where are you?
In my house, silly.

Can you honestly say you are ok right now?
NOOO!! MARTYYY!!!!!11!!!!234!!!

Do you know all of your siblings?
-___-

Could you go out looking like you do now?
No freakin' way! =P

you never wanted to stay

so yesterday was the school concert!
it was a blast! :]]
i didnt screw up!!! yay hehe =D
i really really had tons of fun, twas a success! :)

anyway...
umm.. im really confused right now. i need to talk to basma. yeah she can cheer me up and make me feel better...

anyways, i need to stop thinking about it so imma go ahead and do this survey:

How would you describe your life?
very confusing. its a mystery really.

Would you go back in time to change something if you could?
deffintely.

Have you changed this year?
yes, im more open-minded.

Who did you last smile at?
her :)

Do you miss anyone?
yesss a lott.

Do you have a best friend?
yes but i still cant talk to them about everything. :(

Do you like anyone?
maybe...

Does anyone like you?
don't think so.

Are you mad at anyone?
at myself because i cant figure this one thing out.

How's the love life?
dont got one.

How many people have you been in love with?
love never wanted me.

Do you still like that person?
sigh.

What are you excited for?
summer.

What sport is better basketball or soccer?
soccer, duh.

Where is your phone?
in my room. but dont worry no one will bother calling...

What's your favorite scent?
anything really...

What's the closest purple thing next to you?
sweets.

Are you happy with the way things are going?
right now, no. but in general, yes.

What are your initials?
saf.

What color are your eyes?
darkish brown.

What color eyes do you find attractive in the opposite sex?
dont care.

Do you care about anyone?
some people.

What's the last thing that made you mad?
the fact that i was waiting for a text message that never came.

Who was the last person you rode in a car with?
my sister, ana, and komar.

Was today a good day?
no. yesterday was, though.

change will come

Today i was having this funny conversation with my 6-year-old cousin, Shamma. (I think she's six, im not sure haha) and i thought i'd share it, since it made me laugh.

Me: Shamma, you have 3 sisters. Don't you ever get bored or feel like you're stuck with them? Don't you want a brother? I mean you're all girls!

Shamma: No. I don't want a brother.

Me: Then what do you want?

Shamma: I want another four sisters to be added to the family!

Me: WHAT? FOUR MORE? BUT THEN YOU'LL BE EIGHT KIDSSSS!! THATS A LOT!

Shamma: Yes it would. But i want four sisters.

Me: Why?

Shamma: So i can beat them up.

Me: *laughs like a mad scientist* BEAT THEM UP? WHYYYYY???

Shamma: Beacause.

Me: *still laughing* God Shamma you're evil.

Shamma: *laughs* yeah i like beating people up. it makes me happy.

THE END.

Hahaha hope it makes you smile :)
But then again, it is quite silly. idk, i laugh at the silliest of stuff so...

where did i go wrong?

you know how much i love you. you know that you mean everything to me. but you must know this:

sometimes, i feel like i hate you. (and yes, i am fully aware of how big the word 'hate' is. but i can't help the way i feel.)
sometimes i feel that you're too selfish; looking for fun for yourself only and forgetting the fact that i've always been there by your side.
sometimes i wish i could just leave you.
sometimes i feel like im stuck or forced to sit with you.
sometimes i feel lost.
sometimes i hate myself so much for going through what i go through, because of you, and never doing a thing about it.
sometimes, you're the reason, i don't wanna live anymore.
sometimes, you're the reason i hate my life.
sometimes i don't feel safe having you by my side.
sometimes i wish i could tell you how i feel.
sometimes i just wanna leave you, be free, and live my life without you taking any part in it.
sometimes i just wanna sit down and cry, and not have you by my side.
sometimes i don't want you to call me.
sometimes i don't want you to talk to me.
sometimes i don't want to wait for you.
sometimes i don't want you to wait for me.
sometimes i regret ever knowing you,
because sometimes you're not there for me.
because sometimes you'd rather hang out with them.
because sometimes you'd let me walk alone.
because sometimes you'd laugh louder with them. (fake laugh, maybe?)
because sometimes you don't wanna take the blame. (even though you might know you were wrong)
because sometimes when i try to talk to you you think i'm being silly...
you think i'm being emotional...
you think i'm making a big deal outta nothing...
when was i ever not there for you?
where did i ever go wrong?
i know that i'm not perfect. i make at least one mistake in everyday of my life. but hey, i always apologize for my actions.
you rarely apologize.
whenever i wanna hear your sincere apology, it never comes out of your mouth.
why did i ever pick you?
why are you doing this to me?

meh. i hate how my bring controls and gets the better of me
-_-

Hello unfairness!

Environmental Science overall grades so far:

Fa6oom: A+
Maryaminho: B+
Myself: C+

Gee. How typical of Ms. Jain =/

I effing study as hard as my two best friends! I STUDY MY BUM OFF FOR EVERY TEST!!!!!!!!!
Eff it, man!

How typical....

shaikha at the disco

so here's some of my favorite lines from various panic at the disco songs:

it's not so p l e a s a n t

and it's not so conventional

it sure as hell ain't normal

but we deal, we deal.

---

haven't you heard that i'm the new cancer?

never looked b e t t e r, and you can't stand it

because you say so under your breath;

you're reading lips:

"when did he get all confident?"

---

well she's not bleeding on the ballroom floor just for the

a t t e n t i o n

'cause that's just ridiculously on.

---

and i believe this calls for a proper introduction, and well,

don't you see? i'm the narrator and this is just the prologue.

---

just for the record, the weather today is slightly

s a r c a s t i c

with a good chance of:

A. indifference

or

B. disinterest in what the critics say.

---

well, i'm afraid that i...

well i may have faked it

and i wouldn't be caught dead in this place.

---

i don't love you, i'm just

passing the time.

you could love me if i

knew how to lie.

---

back to the place where we used to say,

"man it feels good to feel this way!"

---

i know it's mad,

but if i go to hell will you come with me

or just l e a v e me?

---

i wanna go where everyone goes

i wanna know what everyone knows

i wanna go where everyone feels

the same.

---

take a chance, take your shoes off,

dance in the rain

yeah we're s p l a s h i n g around

[&] the news spread all over town

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i know the world's a broken bone

but melt your headaches;

call it home.

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its the greatest thing that's yet to have happened:

imagine knowing me?!

its the greatest think you'd ever imagine.